Sup people.

Last friday night

Oh hiiiiiiiiiiiiii , last night break fast w my bromance’s . hehehhe , we walked down to the boulevard & had tons of fun . Thought of breaking fast at ” Botak Jones ” but then…………… HAHHAHA , But in the end we break fast at LJS ,am craving for it too at that time ^^ After eating , kim , me , sal & fir talked bout our past & how cute we were & how naughty we were back then , hahaha . Miss those times though (‘: Now after 10years that we’ve all grown up , we became much closer ^^ Then bought caramel gong cha & saw sg’s Tae yang . Whoa he danced so dope & smooth , and then went to scape’s other levels & took pictures & saw muttonsssssss :> hah , since sal havent seen them before . HAHAHAH LOL SAL XD . & then we walked to skate park & i saw kak finah . Lol wait ” skate park ” ?! HAHAH sorry im not a skater , but sal & fir are , & kim was a biker ! HAHAHA . Then we separated & i went home w kim & ain & kim dropped down at daddy’s station (Marsiling) so i went back home w ain & talked bout our life & school & she regretted not joining my school . hah , cute uh she . Then saw Ana & asked ain if she knows ana & she said no? ahahahha , & ana’s sad to hear that . hahahah & took a ride home & reached home around 10:30+ . & mum didnt even say anything , phew .  & she asked me if i smoked then i was like “no?O.o i quitted along time already” , hahahha & i smell my dress & i was like ohhhh no wonder i smell like smoke , lol hahahha .  Was supposed to sahur at jb w parents & lil sis , but im just too exhausted , so i decided not to go . & at 4:45 dad called me to wake up for sahur & i didnt woke up till he called me at 5:15 . Dad; Wake up already or not ? *high pitch tone* Me; Huh? *jumps out of bed yaaaa only tht bro didnt wake up yet . LOL HAHAHAHHA . & Today daddy bought a new tv , yay (: Okay gtg , gonna break fast soon , nasi lemak kerang yummmmmmmmmmm .

Its time i leave the world :’(

Idk whats runnin through my mind now , im thinking too much ! Really too much , ive never non stop crying like this , this is the first time . I cried in class & my classmates notice me , they asked me what happened & if can share w them . But i didnt told them what happened , all i say was ” Im ok ” :’( *Sigh , idk what happened to me . Oh God , take my life , dont let me suffer . Im just too confused & lately i lose appetite . Whats wrong w me !? Im no more that strong girl :( . I know this is hurting , but as im typing now , tears rolling down my cheek . Non of my family members knew bout this , but im sure , if they read this , they’ll break into tears too . If i keep being like this , i think the only choice is …………………………………… sigh :”( I cant tell anyone bout this , But if i leave the world one day , some one pls spread this …. Urghhh , my eyes is already swollen ! I dont wanna get out of the room , cause im sure if my family sees me like this , they’ll ask about it .  So for now , if i never reply or answer your call , im truly sorry . Im just in no mood for now :’( . Im just too weakkkkkkkkkk . Nobody will know nor understand on whats my situation right now , even if they know , they cant cure it , bcause i know that the only cure is for me to leave the world :’( Goodbye for now , idk wheter this would be the last post that im gonna post :”(